Out of Type: Why I Can’t Write Blog Posts Anymore
I’ve been wondering why – why I can’t write blog posts anymore.
Trust me, I’ve tried and I can’t get past the first paragraph.
Now I think I’ve worked out why.
The answer lies in the name: timm in type – home to a man of his words. Once upon a time I was that man. Now I’m not.
What happened?
In November last year I unceremoniously quit my job, having spent ten years as federal public servant.
I was drained and desperate. For too long I’d been pretending to be something I wasn’t: someone who could sit and stare at a computer all day.
It was a scary move. How the hell was I going to earn a living? I wasn’t qualified for anything except office work.
I didn’t know, but I hoped something would come up.
Three months later it did. I decided to train as a swimming teacher. It made sense. I love swimming and I like kids. And swimming teaching’s an active and interactive occupation that’s virtually computer-free. (Yippee!)
Having started my training, I got a lucky break, scoring a job at a local swim school, one populated by great people.
Now, with my initial training at an end, I’m about to return to paid work. As a swimming teacher.
In a matter of months I’ve gone from being a hermitted work-from-homer to a blissed-out people person. That said, I haven’t become a totally new person; it’s more that I’ve returned to a former self – to the Timm I fancy I was as a country kid before I made some mistakes.
On another level, I’ve gone from being a ‘man of his words’ – someone who thought his writing alone reflected his true self – to a ‘man of his actions (and interactions)’.
That’s why I can’t write blog posts anymore.
Okay, nice to know. But what about this blog?
Sadly (for some), it’s not going anywhere. It’ll stay a storehouse of my writing and, increasingly, of my musical scraps.
And I’ll keep writing in my journal, so all is not lost.
Hey, look – I finished this post!
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